Mom’s Strange Dream
An interpretation of the dream
A message from the dream
My application of the dream
The
other morning, mom was telling me she’d had a nightmare. She was screaming in
the nightmare and was so upset and she woke up literally screaming out loud as
well. She said the dream was so scary! Then she told it to me, and I was like…
hmmm maybe it was scary to you but doesn’t sound too bad to me!
She told
me the dream. We were in our old house. In the dining room, instead of the
dining room table and chairs, there was a hospital bed, and Seth was in it.
When you
walked into our den, our wooden furniture was missing. Maybe it was antique
furniture. Anyhow, it was all gone, and it puzzled mom as she looked around.
Then she looked outside, and there was a rocking chair made of the wood from
the house, and other little wooden fun furniture items. That’s when mom began
to scream, because all her old furniture had been destroyed. I was not
physically present in her dream.
So… this
past weekend I went to a John Ramirez deliverance conference with my friend
Michele. I love her, if I’ve never blogged about how we met I’ll need to soon!
She has a prophetic gift. Her gift specifically is that she sings messages from
God prophetically to people. She sang to me, As the Deer panteth for the water
so my soul panteth after thee… anyhow, something prompted me to tell her the
dream. But then, she immediately had an interpretation of it! She was like, oh
that’s so sad! You’re mom is too stuck in the past to recognize the gifts and
new things God is doing right in front of her.
My brother is
broken, hence in a hospital bed. If you know him, you know this is true. No
need to go into personal details here, but he can use your prayers.
The old
furniture is the past, what mom had known for years. The new furniture represents
the new blessings in store for her. I wasn’t present in the dream, but I am the
one who made the new furniture. Mom is so upset that the old me has
disappeared, she cannot see the good in the new things happening in me.
The
message of the dream is to not hold on so tightly to the past that you miss
what’s new going on in front of you.
The
application for me I suppose, is, I have to recognize that mom is not ready for
me to grow and to go. It’s obvious that my brother needs help. But something
different is happening in me, something new, something exciting, but mom is so
stuck in wanting the past that she’s unable to see the beauty and creativity
and change in me. Knowing this, I must continue to change and grow. I cannot
let her refusal to move into the now keep me chained to the past.
I’m so
glad that I am growing, and even though it scares mom, she sees it as well. I
recently decided not to move in with the friend I had thought I’d live with in January.
It hasn’t eased my frustration with being here. I do need to get out, it just
wasn’t the right move to move in with her.
But we
both recognize change is happening. One of us is excited about it, the other is
scared. Mom is very scared as to what will happen to her when I move out and
move on.
Mom is
not doing well at all. Her lymphedema is getting worse and worse, and it even
alarms me that she could die, or have complications that put her in the hospital
again, and if she goes in, will she come back at this point? Would she end up
in a nursing home? And, what will happen to me and Seth, because we’ll be
kicked out of the house.
So I get
her fears. Her whole world is soon about to change. As soon as I am able I’m
moving out, and she know it. I even applied to work on a cruise ship to get
away – but then I wouldn’t be able to pursue the dreams God has given me. And
those will be a new thing, an exciting thing. But… I don’t need mom anymore. I’ve
grown past that role.
We can
fear and resist change, or we can embrace it in all it’s glory. There is a
choice in how we respond.
I pray I
don’t miss the opportunities to grow past the past into the future God is
calling me towards.
